Tuesday, August 31, 2010

Flu Attack!

Do you ever feel that the universe is bent on crashing down around you? I just get back into the grove of writing daily and BAM! I  come down with the meanest sinus-virus thing that knocks you flat on your back.

Last Thursday, I left work not feeling well and headed straight to the doctor's office. Dad came down with it first then mom got and I knew I was not up for the challenge to beat this on my own. So I went and got antibiotics - the nastiest antibiotics known to man! They cause a horrible taste in my mouth all day and night. It's like sucking on a penny, a dirty gross penny!

Well I laid around from Thursday till this morning when I dragged myself back to work. Does the email fairy know that I had been on leave for two and half days? My inbox was stuff with stupid stuff that just interfered with me getting it empty.

I am not well yet but can return to work [yes, I am whiny today].

I will leave you with the funniest biology lesson I've seen in a while. Kids today are so lucky, all I had where those horrible reel to reel films. 

Flu Attack! How A Virus Invades Your Body



I give all my problems to God and trust him to take of me.

Enough for now...

Monday, August 23, 2010

Eat Pray Love

Ironically, I encounter the very same thing this weekend.

EAT
I diet four weeks and cheat on the weekend of the fourth week. So I managed to hit IHOP, Braums, Carlos (Mexican), Little Caesars and York's Peppermint Patties and three bottles of Coke. Today I resume the rabbit food.

PRAY
My life has been a continuation of my previous post with prayer and because of God I will be okay.

LOVE
Okay not the romantic love that Julia was finding in that movie (or for what I can gather from the commercials as I have not seen the movie, lol). Mom, however, hung about the house with me rearranging my closet and just talking  - helping me to keep my mind of the troubles. The ultimate form of love, sitting in my living room when you'd rather be lounging at home.

Enough for now...

Saturday, August 21, 2010

My Miracle

Recently chaos has ruled my world and I reached critical mass. On the fourth day in a row where I cried at work because of the nit picky, petty and constant mistreatment from my boss. I was about as low a you can get. No one could help me and I could see no way out. Mom called a family friend, Larry, asked for prayer and we got a miracle.

Larry talked with mom Thursday night and gave her peace and bits of wisdom. Then he called me and left me with the right perspective and peace.

Larry also email much for me to take to heart but this from scriptures rocked me to my core

"I am the eternal God, your Refuge. And underneath you are My everlasting arms.

My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness.
So do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to Me. And my peace, which transcends comprehension, will stand guard over your heart and mind."

With a promise such as this, no more of my boss' cruelty, lies or poisonous attitudes can touch me, as He is my Refuge. Through prayer and friendship, I am much stronger at work. It was as if a different Dana went to work on Friday. This is because God sent Larry into our lives and help me and my mom find peace, at this time in our lives we needed Larry. God gave me the strength and calmness we prayed for.

There are precious people in this world and I like to think of them as Angels in Waiting, that's my brother, Larry.

I give all my problems to God and trust him to take of me.

Enough for now...

Thursday, August 19, 2010

A Needed Moment of Kindness

I had a really nice conversation with a co-worker on my floor. We talked work and it was really interesting learning about her area. It so amazing how we can work for the same place and I not know what she does really. I enjoyed it.

I am struggling with faith, it's hard to Let Go, Let God. The human in me wants to bash someone on the head. The human in me wants to run away. I will keep trying to have faith and I will repeat this prayer until my world improves.

I give all my problems to God and trust him to take of me.

Enough for now...

Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Having Faith

I told mom that I've struggled keeping positive in my posts and asked what in the world would I write about tonight. She told me to write this.

I give all my problems to God and trust him to take of me.

And I am to write that everyday until things improve. You know, every time I try to handle my own affairs I tend to mess them up. I need God's help. I know that He will bail me out of this mess as He has always taken care of me. One day, I hope to know what I needed to learn from this ordeal but I know that I will be better for it.

Letting loose and not worrying will be very difficult for me, so pray for me. I guess this is what that bumper stickers means when it says "Let Go, Let God."

Enough for now.

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Good Day [Exclamation Point]

For the first time in a long while I had a fun! Another division's administrator ask me to help brainstorm and create a new employee orientation video. While a professional crew is coming in tomorrow to video, she and her staff wanted something more than "torturing the new guy" with a lecture.

So last week, we plotted out that she would take the new employee on a virtual tour of the state office and each unit administrator would be introduced to the camera and then walking to the next office. It was fun brainstorming on what to do, then we took the camcorder and did some practice runs.

Once we were done filming, I went back to my office and edited the pieces together, added transitions, added titles and credits and then added music. I am tickled pink to say that it actually came out really cute and I promise you better than having the division administrator stand up in front of the camera and drone on for 10 minutes.

I need more days like these! Enough for now.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Getting Ready for Liam

I had all but written this day off as one worst in a long time. Then I went shopping for my Army Nephew's new baby. Since they live in Germany and the baby is due in October, we had to get the gifts shipped pretty soon.

I have to say that if I had to go to a mall today, the shopping would have had to wait, I just wasn't up to being in public. But we have the glorious Amazon.com. Mom and I sat down, ordered the gifts and poof we're done! I love technology.

My great nephew's name will be William but they plan to call him Liam. I like it. We won't get to meet the little one until July 2011, which means he'll be nine months old by then. That will be tough but it's life.

Enough for now as I am struggling to stay positive tonight.

Sunday, August 15, 2010

Dilemma Read, Play Computer Game, Read, Play Computer Game

Today I got up threw on a pair of jeans and stumbled to the couch and promptly started reading. Totally unmotivated to do anything other than sit and read or sit and play Bejeweled Blitz. Yesterday, I was somewhat productive but didn't finish cleaning the house. I rationalized that I would finish up today [funny].

It's now 6:17 p.m. on Sunday and it's not gonna happen! I did give baby a bath, which didn't set well with him but hey, if I have to take one daily, he can have one twice a month! The funny thing about beagle is that they will endure whatever you are doing to them but if they don't like it, they give the most incredible sad eye stare know to man. Winston has mastered this and I usually end up laughing at him.

I redesigned all my blogs this weekend trying to re-energize my blogging spirit. I kind of feel as though I worked all weekend. While it did keep my mind occupied on things other than work but it was very much like the work I do at work.

My weekend of slothness has a few more hours to go and then to hell I must return.

Enough for now.

Friday, August 13, 2010

It's FRIDAY, F R I D A Y ! ! !

I would introduce to my new boyfriend but it looks like we broke up. I've always liked skinny boys.

I am still trying get my entire backyard watered and have no exciting plans for the weekend. So I am thinking I might blow off any work and read. It is times like this that being single comes in real handy.

If I don't want clean, I don't have to. If I don't want to do anything, I don't have to. Today, I like my life, don't ask me about tomorrow.

Enough for now.

Thursday, August 12, 2010

Some Don't Like it Hot!

When are we going to get a break on this stupid heat? Geeze o Pete is it really 105 degrees for the 45th day in row? Okay, I tend to exaggerate when I am unbearably hot. I am sick of having to drive home on the highway only able to touch my steering wheel with the tips of my fingers until the A/C can cool it down enough to actual hold the stupid thing.

The heat is really taking its toll on my yard. I believe there is more dirt showing than grass covering it. BUT that did not stop my yard guy from coming out and spreading fertilizer all over my yard, which means the must water within two weeks. Yeah there's a 30 percent chance of rain on Saturday - like that's going to happen! So yesterday, I started watering my yard and only got the perimeter done. If you water too early you can burn your yard and if you start too late you can't get it all done.

Plus ever move a fan sprinkler without get soak? No you haven't it's not possible. I need rain! I need cool weather.

Enough for now.

Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Wednesday Wonder

Today, was my telecommute day where I crawl out of bed and go straight to my office. No waking up late and mad dash to dress, no dropping baby off at mom's and no morning rush hour, it's so cool. I do love the fact that it's a great day to tie up a lot of lose ends. Because of telecommuting I feel caught up more that I feel behind, which so great.

What's not so good about telecommuting is that you do work more than your allotted eight hours. I usually start work at 7 a.m. instead of 7:30 a.m. and end when I finally pack up the computer, today that was about 5:45 p.m.

Winston, on the other hand, does not like my telecommuting. I am too pre-occupied with my computer for his liking, so mom and dad have to come get him or he'll sulk all day long.

I love this modern world we live in but I have to say that I also like going into the office. One day a week is fine but more than that and I think I would miss the social and professional interaction that going into the office affords me. I have a couple of good friends and email conversations just don't cut it.

Enough for now.

Tuesday, August 10, 2010

Sisterly Love

My sister, Kim, points at something off camera laughing while I am standing in a tree.Am I a good sister or what! Kim wants the HGTV $70 K home remodeling sweepstakes so she has been entering the sweepstakes every day for a while now. The problem is that her computer was zapped with a power surge and fried everything. So until Best Buy can finish marvelling at the fried hard drive and tell her to give up the ghost and buy new, I am making her entries! Everyday!

Actually, I find it funny because there's no way she's gonna win but........... if she does, I'm going to be irked for not entering myself! I need a new driveway. I really don't need $70K to remodel my house, I need $70K to pay my house off.

I guess I got burned out on all those Publishers Clearinghouse Sweepstakes when I was a little girl. Mom would let me fill them out and I would study all the magazine stamps that she would not let me order. I probably entered every one that came to our house from Junior High through graduation. What happened? Life scoffed at me and I did not win! I have never entered a sweepstakes again!

Enough for now.

Monday, August 09, 2010

People Come and People Go

Today, I had a really nice surprise. Old job, Co-Worker T. came into the same restaurant I was at. It was really neat to get see him again even if it was for only a couple of minutes.

I have to admit that I liked working with him. Because of Co-Worker T. I am able to do the job I have now. He was patient with me when I was learning how to create websites. He was a good teacher.

Ironically, at a time when I have no faith in workplace decency, I run into one of the few who made work fun, interesting and educational. It's been about four years, since we worked together and I had a little pang of regret when I saw him again. Fun and silliness wrapped around work makes for fond memories.

He appeared to be happy with his current job where he's this big time web guru with a healthy size staff and you know, it doesn't surprise me. Co-Worker T. is good at web design.

After this accidental meeting it brought up many memories of all the people who I've worked with and became friends with and it amazes me how easily you lose touch. I have referred to Friend Ellen in this blog (quite a long time ago) but what I failed to say is that before she was Friend Ellen, she was Boss Ellen. I regret that we've manage to drift apart.

Former Co-Worker Ed has just recently friended me on Facebook and low and behold he has babies, two to be exact!

It's a little sad that it is so hard to stay in touch with the people who we work with after they change jobs. I guess what's really important is that for those moments in time, we are blessed with friendship.

Enough for now.

Sunday, August 08, 2010

Revelations of Crappy Life

As I glanced over this, I noticed a prevailing theme running through my entries -- I am tired, and I realized this must be the most boring blog in history. I have done a great deal of complaining that didn't happen before. My job is more stressful, my personal life of late has be more stressful and overall everything sucked! No wonder only two people read this.

Long time ago, when I started this I wanted to be creative and silly, now it is the place to put a voice to my all ills or elude to it least. I am not happy and my blog is reflecting that.

I am not sure that changing my job will make me happy - I believe the culture of the work place is hateful. So I will be just moving from one bad situation to another but staying put is not an option either. I have to try to better my situation.

Where's the creativity in my blogging? It's totally gone. It's amazing how you replay the bad stuff over and over in your mind and the good stuff never comes. With Barack Obama, pretending to be President, this blog should be filled with barb after barb. The drive for writing isn't there because I can't let go of the crap in my life and this saddens me.

When I turned 36, I turned my back on finding that someone special and quit the dating scene. I don't have patients for the game that is dating and honestly, I am afraid I am too blunt for it. Do I regret it? No not really, but there are realities to the single life that I didn't expect. For example: exploring the world is not option for me. I learned that sight-seeing and vacationing alone isn't my thing. I am a social creature and vacation for me have always be a social event. Also, world travel is expensive and you don't just grab a friend and run off to Ireland for the weekend.

Lately, I have come to the conclusion that life for me is something I have to endure, where most people embrace and experience all it has to offer. Now, don't call 911 (or 199 depending on where you live) I am not suicidal, just disappointed. I expected from more from life.

On a brighter note, I am trying to take back control in my life and that is through job searching, losing weight (one, you do better in job interviews if your not over-weight and two, it's either lose the weight or start smoking again and don't like being fat) and concentrating on enjoying the friendships I have and ignoring the bad. So in order to this effectively, it has to start here. No more bitching and moaning, anyone who reads my entries from this point forward has permission to scold whenever I go negative.

I also hope to get back to real blog entries not these two-sentences that take less time to read than it does for the web page to load. I am Dana! Hear me roar (just pray that tomorrow you're not hearing me whimper).

Enough for now.

Friday, August 06, 2010

Weekend Blues

Little man is struggling with grass allergies that make his belly break out with heat and itches. I took him to the vet at the beginning of July and he got his yearly shot but this year's pollen was too tough for him and we had to get another.

I know he really didn't feel good because Dr. Boatsman barely got a wiggle. Winston loves the vet, up until the thermometer comes out, that is. Usually, he thinks its a grand adventure.

If you're looking for a great Vet go to Neel Veterinary Hospital, all the docs are great there!