Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Butterflies on steroids

Okay major project, check! Finally, I am beginning to knock a dent in all the many projects stressing me out. I didn't know if I was going to make it a 45 minute presentation without really embarrassing myself but I managed to survive. I don't think I will volunteer for another presentation for a very long time.

It's 7:45 pm and I am still very wired. I do feel like it is good to push yourself in tough situations to experience and improve. However, I also feel that moderation is a good thing. The next time I will challenge myself will be around the year 2020.

The biggest problem I had today was with my PowerPoint. Somehow the slides where set on a timer, yet I didn't set a time limit on them.

I have thought about joining Toastmasters but not today. I will let you know if I start breathing normally tomorrow.

Enough for now...

Monday, February 13, 2012

It's only Monday and I am this exhausted??

HTML5 logo Today was a whirl wind of projects that I didn't want to work on but required my attention. Since we got three to four inches of snow last night, the Commission meeting was cancelled. I was relieved that I didn't have to video tape our Director, edit the tape, and caption the video. I was going to be able to work on other time sensitive projects.

Nope! The Director called and said "I want to tape the report I would have given to the Commission." Then in his message there were many time references that really dictated that I get the video out today. To make matters worse, my assistant is out this week and I had to transcribe the audio for the captioning. At 5:30 pm, I was sending the email to the director all done!

Then to top everything off, Mom and Dad had to be picked up at the airport. Because of the chaos of the day, they had to wait at the airport until I could get the reporters out of the building - oh, did I fail to mention that I media.

I am cannot believe that I am this exhausted already. Tomorrow (whimper), I have to give my hour long presentation to the web group that I am a member of. What in the world was I thinking when I agree to present on HTML5. Shoot me now!

Enough for now...

Sunday, February 12, 2012

Rock 'em, Shock 'em Robots

Hugh Jackman in a boxing ring with his robot boxer and he is point with both hands to his eyes and the robot is mimicking him.I am trying my best to be super mellow this weekend and for the most part, I have succeed. I have only worked on my side job, which is fresh and I enjoy it. My full time job is so exhausting that even thinking about working causes a heaviness to fall all about me.

Yesterday, I watched movies all day. First it was road kill - you know, the one you don't want to look but you do any way. Twilight, Breaking Dawn, oh my stars, do the books get as ridiculous as the movies? The wedding scenes where beautiful but the way Kristen Stewart plays Bella just wears you smooth. The best way I can explain it is "Awkward." There was one scene where she was telling off Edward and was actually realistic. The way she acts where she can't breath or can't say what she thinking just bugs the crap out of me.

Jacob's temper tantrums bug me too. Storming off into the woods to brood as a wolf is plan silly. Like I said this movie is road kill for me. I don't want to look, yet I do.

The other movie that I watched was Reel Steel. It was slow getting started but got better as toward the end. I am not a fan of people who are verbally rough on kids and so I really didn't like the lead character. But that predictably came to an end when he got to know his son.

Today won't be as mellow as yesterday. I have to clean my house company clean and I am so not in the mood. My Uncle Bill will be visiting my dad for a couple of weeks and it is bad form for show off all my dad's hard work with dirty clothes and dishes every where.

However, it's only 9 a.m. I think I will read for a little bit.

Enough for now...

Friday, February 10, 2012

IT'S FRRRRIIIIIDDDAAAAYYY

Seamus,a black and tan bloodhound, is sleeping on the couch
Never had I needed a week to be over as much as I needed this week to end. Three of my massive projects will be finished by Wednesday and on Wednesday I will crash.

I am paying extra care to put my day job on hold for the weekend.The only work I plan to do is for my side job but forget the day job.

So I took Mom and Dad to the airport then went and go a mani-pedi and now I sit waiting for Nitka to come on. Then I will watch Grimm and then on to Merlin. In other words, I am going for mindless entertainment. That is all I can handle right now.

Seamus will spend the weekend with us and I am rather glad that its going to be cold. Seamus is a rather big snuggler and when its cold you don't seem to mind it as much.

Enough for now...

Thursday, February 09, 2012

Emotional Overload

One of the things that I hate the most about myself is that I am a complete bawl baby. And to make it worse when I get over worked or on too tight of deadlines, someone can look at me crossways and I will bawl like the world is coming to an end.

I want to stop crying at work, people think you are unstable.  I just want to be tough as nails and not care about anything. Unfortunately that is not who I am. I think the reason I am so emotional is also partly the reason I am creative. If I am able to turn it off and not care what people think, will that cause me to not to care about my work too?

Work has been way overwhelming with too many big projects. By the end of next week, I am hoping to get the Annual Report proofed and ready for print. Then I could settle down and gather my thoughts.

Delima, do I stop and rest and not make any progress on the massive workload or do I work over the weekend and get somethings done? I think I will have to a little of both.

I do think that tomorrow, I need a mani-pedi.

Enough for now...

Tuesday, February 07, 2012

The Shine has worn off my brillance

Lately, work has been incredibly busy and I have been traveling all over the state. I actually like it except for today's drive, the Malibu they gave me had a super rough drive. I drove to Tulsa and back by 1:30 p.m. and was plum worn out.

The flood of work won't slow down until probably May. I am not overly thrill about this but have decided that I will do what I can and the other stuff will have to wait.

I am lacking some of the confidence I need to do my job due to the extreme workload and I feel like I am slamming things out. I don't like to make errors and yet, lately that been more abundant than I like. I need to figure out how to slow down and be okay with being behind.
I will have the annual report completed by the end of the week and hopefully get to work on our awareness day like I feel I should. I don't like planning events and not being able to devote the proper amount of time.

Then on top of working late and weekends trying to catch up at work, I am trying to complete a side web site job. Talk about burning the candle at both ends (I'm melting). To make this even harder, I have not had a coke, refined sugar, french fries, chocolate, or Mexican food since January 3. I hate diets.

My baby dog is not happy with all this working. He has taken to laying down next to me and pushing the laptop away. I think he has the right idea.

Enough for now...